February 29, 2004
5:43
Yay Architecture. I'm not home yet. Still in studio. I think I'm just going to stay until I have to go to work tomorrow. Damn this sucks.
What happens when you put hundreds of extremely creative people together in one building? Stuff like this...
February 27, 2004
February 26, 2004
beautiful days
I truly love beautiful days. Yesterday it felt like 70 degrees and today should be the same. I wish I could have class outside.
In other news, I'm starving to death. Well I guess not starving to death but the mal nutrition from eating only ramen should do me in shortly.
February 25, 2004
February 24, 2004
school rocks
I've been super busy this week so far and it's not going to get any better. I have a huge studio project due on Monday and I don't feel like I have the kind of quality project I need. I decided this yesterday and began to build a completely new model from the ground up. It's going to be a good time getting all of it done in time, but hey, that's what college is about.
In other news, Nicole and I had our first fight. I did something, she got upset and said things, and in turn I got mad about the things she said, blah blah blah. I can go into specifics if you want but the jest of it was that my friend Ashley kissed me on the cheek in a picture, Dom^2 posted that pic on his site, Nicole saw it and it bothered her. She said some things I considered mean and I took offense and I said some things back that I'm sure weren't the nicest. In the end we got over ourselves, accepted each other's apologies and everything is fine again.
I'm going to be real busy this week so if you're looking for lots of posting go see Dom^2's blog. He's an internet fool. You can also find him every five minutes at the yellowcard message board.
February 22, 2004
February 19, 2004
taken seriously
I've never really given thought to the idea of living together before marriage. It seemed to me that everyone lived together, got to know each other very well, and then got married. I wasn't aware that it was done any differently. To me it makes more sense to do it this way. You get to see the ins and outs of your spouse before hand so it isn't some big mystery when you do finally get married and live together. The thought of marrying and then living together never even came to mind.
Being with Nicole has made me very aware that things are done differently in other places. I've said in the past that Nicole is conservative. She comes from a kind of family where they do things the traditional way. The parents are your parents, not your friends; they tell you what to do and when to do it. You go to church, you pray to God, you follow the path or righteousness. Never before did I have a problem with this. Sure, I was raised very differently. My Dad is my best friend who I can tell anything. I did what I want when I wanted. My Dad put trust in my decisions. He let me make my own mistakes. There was no religious influence what so ever.
Nicole being different in this aspect is what makes her so attractive. We've been talking about having her move here. She doesn't like New Mexico and her scholarship is over at the end of this semester. Her moving to Colorado would be a big change, a change that I think might be good for her. I don't think that it's good because of me, I think it's good because she's not in a very good place. I don't know of anyone just itching to move to Albuquerque. They have a high crime rate and New Mexico is the drug OD capital of the nation. Yes, she would be moving farther from her parents but I feel like the difference between a three hour drive and a nine hour drive isn't that big of a deal. It's not like she would be moving out of the country.
From what she's told me it sounds like her parents think I better completely take care of her if she moves here. To me it sounds like she becomes my responsibility. I wouldn't mind taking care of her in any way that I possibly could, but I don't feel like Nicole is a responsibility. Getting a puppy is a responsibility. On top of this, in order to even take on this "responsibility" they think I should marry her.
To me taking the step to live together is a big one. To tell me that on top of this I have to marry her just so I can be with the person I love isn't being fair. Unless they're completely naive they know we have sex. If they're pushing for marriage before living together don't you think they should also be just as strict about marriage before sex?
What really gets me is that they know she's lived with boys before. What's wrong with me? Why can't she just come here and be with me? What does marriage fix? I think if anything it causes more of a problem.
If they'd stop and think about it they'd realize we're kids and we're going to do whatever the hell we want to do, and them telling us to do something differently only makes us want it our way even more. We're college kids in love. Now isn't the time or place in our lives for marriage. I'd hate to start off on the wrong foot with her parents just because I don't agree with their irrational ideals of marriage. If it was 1950 I'm sure I'd agree with them a little more but it's not. Customs and beliefs have to change to keep up with modern society.
So there it is, my first problem with conservativeness.
February 18, 2004
overworked, underpaid
Ahhh... That's my sigh of relief. The rest of this week should prove to be less difficult than the first two days. Damn was that bad timing for a midterm and a paper.
February 16, 2004
Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away. It feels like she's come and gone before I ever knew she was here.
I still can't breathe. It hurts.
Saves The Day - This Is Not An Exit
Tonight will be
the night that we
begin to ease
the plugs out of the dam.
And we still stand
knee deep in the flow,
the undertow will grab our heels and won't let go.
And while we hold,
our legs quivering,
the water rises now to our teeth when we just let go
and sail belly up to the clouds,
the rocks scraping our backs.
To breathe in the air will be
the only thing that we have
and all the wasted nights
and empty moments in our lives
are flushed away as we sway with the rhythm
of the waves
bobbing us up.
Crests fall to troughs as we feel our gills open up
and sail belly up to the clouds,
the rocks scraping our backs.
To breathe in the air will be the only thing that we have.
And if the hook gets set in the bottom of our lungs,
we'll rip it out and lick the blood off with our tongues.
Despair could ravage you
if you turn your head around to look down the path
that's lead you here,
cause what can you change?
You're a vessel now floating down the waterways.
You can take your rudder
and aim your ship,
just don't bother with the things left in your wake.
Just sail belly up to the clouds,
the rocks scraping your back.
To breathe in the air will be the only thing that you have
and your love will be warm nights
with pockets of moonlight
spotlighting you as you drift,
the actor in this play.
You walk across the stage,
take a bow, hear the applause,
and as the curtain falls, just know you did it all
the best that you knew how
and you can hear them cheering now.
So let a smile out and show your teeth
cause you know you lived it well.
February 14, 2004
Fall Out Boy!
Nicole is here and... Oh My God! I've been missing out. FOB tonight! I have an extra ticket so if you want to go give me a call. I'll even give you a friend discount. Even if you don't know me I'll still sell you the ticket to this sold out show. Call Me! 303.514.4877
February 12, 2004
February 09, 2004
sick
i'm sick. stay away from me. must get better for Nicole on thursday.
fucking gross
I'm disgusted with my house right now. We had Kole's going away party organized by Amy "I'm Awake For Five Minutes" Scott's girlfriend. It's dirty, it smells, there is puke on the floor in the bathroom and there is beer everywhere. I want to move. I'm over this whole party thing. I'm sick of it trashing my house. It was fun but now every party we have I just want my house to be clean again. I don't like cleaning but I can't live in filth and I'm the only one who cleans regularly. I can't wait to move. I'm never throwing another party.
February 06, 2004
irony
Extreme Irony - When an ambulance on its way to an emergency runs a light at 28th and Colorado and is t-boned by an oncoming car, causing another emergency which in turn causes more ambulances to run lights and drive to the scene.
5:16
It really is the time of my life.
Yeah Architecture!
Tonight was probably the best time I've ever had in college. Tonight was planned as a studio drinking night but few people showed up. I initiated it, and I said I'd bring the booze. I'm a man of my word and I got ripped and provided alcohol as promised. It turned out to be the best time ever. There were only five of us but we had a great time. Adam and Sandra got completely wasted and Adam snowboarded down the spiral staircase in the studio. Then we proceeded to get busted by the cops and detained while the police searched the rest of the studio for delinquents. In the end we got away misdemeanor free and had a great experience. Once I learn how to post the videos I will so be sure to check back. Love you all, even my newest of friends.
-Dom
February 04, 2004
i'm on it
So for the first time this semester I feel good about school. I worked my ass off in studio to give the professor what she wanted and I had a reason for every little stick of wood. About time she liked something I did.
Religion class is real fun right now. We're learning about Jewish marriage and a lot about their customs. I can say I have a new respect for Jewish people and that maybe I'll stop using the term "I've been Jewed", but then again, maybe not. The poors Jews have been fucked over time and time again. In Jewish spirit I downloaded some Jewish music and I have to say, IT'S RAD! It's so light and happy. There's this song called Mazel Tov, I recommend it to anyone who's feeling down, or anyone who just wants something cool and traditional to listen to. It'll be on my playlist from now on.
So I'm all caught up in studio and structures, I'm all caught up in Western Religions and for the most part I'm caught up in Environment and Behavior and I actually have time to do something. For the first time in a while I'm going to the gym. Yay today!
February 02, 2004
studio
I am so fucking sick of staying up all night and working my ass off to meet the expectations of the studio professor. When she critiques my work she doesn't tell me what I've done right, only what I've done wrong and need to do better at. Maybe my ideas are just completely lame and unfounded, I can accept this. What I can't accept is the fact that even though I do everything I'm told, I take all her advice, I do things the way she wants them done she still rips apart my project. I've worked way too hard to have her tell me it's nothing. Fuck you ginger jones. You can take your Ivy League education and shove it up your ass. Just because your parents were rich and could put you through a $100,000 education doesn't mean all your ideas are the greatest or even correct. I need an instructor, not a critic. Go to hell.