the Nonsense in Between

by request

As requested by many I am posting about my recent engagement. The following is the entry I wrote in my journal as soon as we got back...

As I begin to type these words I realize that they will never capture their own intent. The best I can do is type the details of the recent events as the feelings inside me long for a language of their own. For now plain old English will have to suffice.

On Friday February 25th 2005 Dominic made me the happiest girl in the world. On Thursday night I met him in San Francisco for a mini-vacation. On that Friday we checked out the city together. He took me to the aquarium at pier 39. Then we went to telegraph hill. The walk was great, the city and the sites were beautiful, and the company was perfect as usual. As we were walking up the hill I stopped to look at the trees and Dominic said something like “come on there’s more to see at the top.” So he held my hand to the top of the hill. Now at the base of Coit tower I’m taking in the spectacular views. Dominic calls me over and says, “look someone wrote on the sidewalk” as I look down I read the words “will you marry me?” my first thought is that someone proposed up here. Then I notice Dominic kneeling down with a ring in a box. After what seemed like 5minutes I realize he wrote it. He’s proposing to me! I’m pretty sure I forgot to breath as I was beginning to feel light headed. At this point it felt like we were no longer standing on this hill with other site seers. Instead, it’s like we’re floating over the city. Breath, Nicole, Breath. As I caught my breath and came back to reality I finally said “yes.” We sat down on the curb. I was still incredibly shocked and pretty much in disbelief. We sat there and he held me as I laughed and cried and reminded myself to keep breathing. I think I asked him about a thousand times if he had just asked me to marry him.

Perfect is the best word I have to describe the proposal. It’s also the best word I have to describe him although I know he deserves much more. I will spend the rest of my life trying to show him what he means to me.

There’s so much more going on inside my heart that I’ll never be able to explain. It’s beautiful. It’s like all the beautiful feelings I’ve ever shared with him all balled up and then magnified a million times, expanding beyond my conscious thought and enveloping my existence.

Posted by nicole at March 15, 2005 02:15 AM