My whole life I held on to the belief that the world was governed by some spiritual energy. An energy that made sure wrongdoings never went unpunished and saw to it that good things happened to good people. Recent events have shaken me out of my idealistic fairy tale and thrown me into the depths of what I now recognize as reality. News Flash: The world is FUCKED UP! Evil people govern the world not Karma, not God, not the Mystical Justice Brigade, just evil people. Maybe my biggest mistake was seeing good in people perhaps the truth is that humans are inherently evil.
Have I wasted my time and energy trying to be a good person? I am by no means claiming to be a saint but I have never maliciously hurt another person either by my actions or lack of action. Today, I am dealing with people who are knowingly standing by and watching terrible things happen to me. They might as well be holding a waterhose while I burn to death in front of them. Can people really do this and sleep at night? Are integrity and ethics a figment of my imagination? Where is the justice in anything anymore?
People make me sick.
Posted by nicole at March 23, 2006 01:49 PMIt is a rare quality to find in people. A simple one to do what is right and try to stand up for what you beleive in. To be there when people need you. To be there sometimes even when they dont ask. To be willing to accept the risks sometimes associated with doing what is right, and doing what a good friend should.
That is why when I find these people, I do a lot to make sure that I keep good people around me, not alone because I have better friends for it. Also, because it makes it a lot easier to see the good in the world, when you at least are surrounded by people the care, and people that try.
Yes many people are bad, and many people will hurt you and take advantage of you, which says to be carefull. But don't loose all faith in people. If you can't at least trust those who earn your trust what else is there. So while you might not be able to trust the world, take comfort in those around you that you know you can trust, and we will slowly lift your spirits, until your able to give out some trust to someone who hasn't earn it yet and give them a chance to prove that not everyone is evil.
and my favorite joke for a moment such as this...
Knock knock
Who's there?
Dan, and I am always going to be there for you.
Karma is still there is just doesnt always have the best timing.
Posted by: Dan at March 23, 2006 10:42 PMI understand, Nicole... I lost my faith in humankind a long time ago. It may be sad and maybe just a little pathetic, but I prefer to be cautious and become pleasantly surprised when something good happens than to be optimistic and be disappointed. Drew was standing in line at Walmart the other day when a jackass of an old man came flying around the corner with his cart and screeched to a halt two inches away from a little 4 year old girl... his response was "MOVE!!!"... not excuse me, please and thank you or I'm sorry I almost hit you. Everyone looked at each other with their jaws dropped as if they were all thinking the same thing... this guy's an ass. Not one person standing nearby, including the girl's teenage sister or Drew said anything to this man... no one stood up for this girl and told this man that he was being a jackass and that he needed to learn some manners... maybe we should all be more vocal to assholes like that and then they might think twice about shitting on others.
Posted by: Denise at March 23, 2006 11:17 PMWe all know shitty and unjust things happen around us every day. It's only a matter of time before it happens to us. Don't take it personally. Where's the pessimistic Nicole I fell in love with?
On whatever level justice will be served whether we're involved with it or not. I'm hoping that those responsible get a staph infection in their anus but that's just me. Love you and lets take advantage of that unemployment!
Posted by: -dominic at March 27, 2006 01:26 PMi had an asshole supervisor who tried many times to get me fired. after 3 years of hell working under this tyrant, i went to work in another dept. i would still see this jerk on a daily basis. we kept it civil. he knew i would kick his ass in a heartbeat if it came down to it. to make a long story short, i got to witness him get fired after 23 years (2 years short of retirement). i did not feel joy or pleasure. i felt compassion. never saw him again, but i still think about him whenever i or a loved one has been wronged by people in positions of power and authority. people sow what they reap. so stop with the negativity. you will never find pleasure at someone elses expense. if it's any consolation, i heard there was so much traffic in your ex-supervisors asshole they had to put a blinking yellow light in his colon! laterzzzz
Posted by: ismael at April 15, 2006 01:58 PM