You know how your lunch break never feels like a break. Instead it feels like a rush to shove food into your empty belly so you can get back to your job and finish your day. Well if you dont know what I'm talking about you must be blessed with a good job or poor superivision.
Yesterday while shoving food into my belly I thought about how little I was enjoying myself and then I took my last drink of water. That last drink of water marked the end of my "break". As I mentally prepared myself to return to work I looked sadly into my empty cup. But it wasn't empty there were still a few drops left. As I dripped the last few drops into my mouth, in a lame attempt to prolong my break, I was mesmerized. I sat there for another few minutes just watching the water droplets roll around in the cup. Somehow it was beautiful and I ended my break with a feeling of total contentment.
As my memory of Saturday night slowly returned I had to laugh at myself. Apparently I rivaled Innapropriate Dave for his title. I was incredibly drunk and abnoxious. I came home and I wanted to call Penny but it was like 3am and Dom wouldn't let me. Probably a good thing he didn't let me call her but he probably shouldnt have let me post on my blog either. Oh well all in all it was a good time...I think.
I have no Penny in my life...I am sad...I wish I had a Penny...I wish i had my Piny...i am wasted and Pinyless...i am sad
The voice inside screams for change
While you sit idly by playing it safe
When suddenly you awaken
The days have passed without you even knowing
You’ve been living each day just coming and going
The sad thing is you don’t know when it will end
This could be your last day lived
What will you do with it?
Spend another day silencing the screams?
Spend another day half asleep?
You'll wake up 10 years from now with yourself to blame
Looking back everyday was exactly the same
As you remember 10 years ago today you chose to play it safe
Election 2004 is here and frankly I'm scared. Scared of what will become of our country, our futures, our planet. People say I shouldnt be afraid and that I should just go and vote for the "best" candidate. Ok first of all, does anyone still think their vote actually counts after what happened in the last election? And even if all the votes get counted honestly is either one of these candidates going to keep their word? They are politicians for christ's sake.
At this point its not a question of who I will vote for but if I'll vote at all. So go ahead comment if you must. Type away angrily telling me its my American right, duty, responsibility...to vote.
Ever try to put together a puzzle? You have two pieces you're sure go together, frustrated you realize your mistake. You move on haphazardly trying to find a matching piece. You find a piece that fits perfectly but you question it because the pieces seem like an unlikely fit. When suddenly you realize the puzzle is complete. The pieces fell together.
Recently, I was reminded of how incredibly lucky I am. Lucky to be alive, lucky to have my health, and lucky to have found love. I think sometimes we take it all for granted. We go through each day assuming there will be another. We treat our loved ones as if they'll always be around. The brutal reality is that there are no guarantees. I know you're all thinking you already knew that and so did I.
When I really thought about it I felt like an idiot. I felt like I've been taking everything for granted. I realized how empty and unfulfilling life will be if I don't appreciate some part of each day. I mean really, genuinely appreciate something. So my commitment to myself is to conciously appreciate some part of each day. No matter how hard or depressing my day is I will find something to be thankful for.
Today I am thankful to have Dominic in my life. He's more than I could have ever asked for and tonight when he gets home I will do my best to show him how much he means to me.